The Night Shift

This is night number four in a row for me. The second night by myself. The first night by myself where Mom can die. I’ve had Jim or Georgia hanging out with me the last few nights.

I’m not going to lie, I’m scared. Scared that I’ll miss her going, scared that she might go without someone that loves her holding her hand and stroking her face. She needs to go though. Her NG tube was pulled over 5 days ago. She stopped breathing two nights ago for about 90 seconds. The two nurses working this side of the palliative care unit Jim and I all stood around. I asked for one of the nurses stethoscope. As she took it off her neck to hand to me Mom started breathing. Now it’s a regular pattern of breathing light then super compensating by breathing heavy followed by a short :10-:15 seconds where she doesn’t breathe at all. This has been going on for two days now. Jim, Georgia, Dad and I are all ragged from lack of consistent sleep. I’m glad my sister has the kids in and can’t pull long shifts here. But it’s going to be harder until Mom passes away because Jim and Georgia had to leave today.

The nursing staff in the palliative care unit have been great to the family, friends, co workers, people from church and from her life that have stopped by. There is a family lounge, I can walk around the entire unit barefooted, the rooms are equipped with a couch and a chair you can sleep on. There is a shower in each bathroom as well. They even let you drink beer up here. But now it’s all about Mom crossing the finish line.

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3 Responses to “The Night Shift”

  1. Tri@PUR Says:

    Man, So sad for you and your family. Be strong man, be strong!

  2. Brian, I am so sad that things have gone the way they have for your mom. These are hard days for you all. I’m glad I got to see Pat, hold her hand and look into her eyes. I hope she knows how much I love her and have treasured her friendship for 44 years. The world won’t be the same without her in it…I know mine wont’ be. She has been so blessed to have two beautiful children although you and Tricia aren’t children anymore. Please take care of yourselves, your mom wouldn’t want you to let your own health go. Thinking of you all every minute of every day.
    Love,
    Sheila

  3. Melissa LeViere Says:

    Hi Brian. I am so sad for you and your family. I only wish I had gotten to see your mom one more time in her normal state. Her beautiful smile and laugh… I remember a lot of the times we spent together as kids and wish I could give you and Trisha a hug and your mom, Smokey too! Keep talking to her, she probably just wants to make sure you will all be okay.
    Love,
    Melissa Abraham LeViere

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